'What sort of leader do you want to be?'

I have a new job! It all happened rather quickly, and possibly a bit sooner than I might have liked, as I wasn't planning on going back to work 'f/t with bells on' until the boys had both started school. But the opportunity for a HoD post in a school that I know and like, with a great MFL team, which is a 20 minute walk away and which the boys will go to eventually was too good to pass up. 

My new title is 'Assistant director of personalised learning (MFL)' which is a bit of a mouthful, basically subject leader with a few extra school and cluster-wide responsibilities. I am very excited and quite a lot nervous!

Anyway, back to the title of this post... When I was preparing for the interview, almost everyone I asked in real life and on twitter suggested that I prepare to answer the question 'what sort of leader do you want to be?'. And I think it was pretty much the only thing in an incredibly full-on day that I didn't get asked. However, reflecting on this question has been both exciting and sobering, so I thought I would commit my thoughts to 'paper', as I want to be able to look back on what I decided to say. This might be a bit long, but for me, it is important.

I want to be the sort of leader who challenges and inspires my team to take risks, push boundaries and question and reflect on what we are doing. I want us to be moving forward, not sitting within our comfort zone. I want to continue to be on the lookout for new ideas that we can try as a department, and I want my team to do the same. I want us to look at what we are doing well, and think how we can take this a step further. I want us to consider areas where we aren't doing so well, and look at what we might do to fix that. I want us to experiment, and fail, and learn and move forward in the same way that we encourage the kids to do. 

I want to be the sort of leader who walks the walk. I want to try things out in my own teaching (I am acutely aware that my own teaching has the potential to suffer now I have so much else to focus on, but I need to remember that the children in front of me have the right to the best of me). I want my own teaching to be outstanding. I want to lead by example in the things I want my team to do, so I will invite my colleagues in to observe me whenever they like, with the fab classes and the rubbish ones, because I feel we have so much to learn from each other, and so many great ideas to share. I will to continue to share resources and ideas left, right and centre. I will initiate both lunchtime chats and formal discussions about what we are doing in our classrooms. 

I want to be the sort of leader who acts as a buffer and protects my team from some of the stress coming from within school and externally. I want them to know that I will do whatever I can to support them in what I (and others) are asking them to do. I will argue our cause when necessary, and stand up for them. I want to be a cheerleader when things are going well, give credit for successes and shout them from the rooftops. I want to listen to my team and for them to feel confident that I genuinely will listen. When things are hard, I want to be a shoulder to cry on, maybe suggest ways forward, definitely be there with cake (never underestimate the power of cake) and do what I can in the little, practical ways to make the day go faster and the week less stressful. This will take a lot of time and energy I am sure. 

I want to be the sort of leader who gives my team the space to develop as professionals. I want to filter and prioritise the many demands placed on us as teachers within this particular school, and new initiatives and ideas within MFL and education generally, so that we are not trying to do everything all at once. I want to encourage people to take on new challenges and responsibility, be it teaching a new class or taking on a role within the department. I NEED TO DELEGATE. (This is in caps because it will be hard for me. I am queen of the last-minute usually, but delegation takes advance planning. Also I am a perfectionist, and I will need to learn not to intervene when something has been done perfectly well, but just not how I would have done it! I know how demoralising it is when something you have worked hard on gets changed when it didn't really need to be.) I want to support people in this, but also give people the room to try and fail. It will be hard learning when to stand back and when to step in and support. I think having children will probably be helpful in this respect though, as isn't this a continual tightrope we a walking as parents?!

This is a lot of 'wants' and I am acutely conscious of the pitfalls of trying to do everything all at once. I am sure I will get things wrong, but I want my mistakes to have come from good intentions at least! I have a wonderful team and I am sure they will tell me when I am being an idiot! I am very excited, but also a bit nervous, as I am good friends with my team, and stepping into a different role, where I will potentially have to have difficult conversations or make unpopular demands, will be weird. But I have been lucky in my career to have had some excellent role models, leaders who have managed all the personalities within their teams with care and expertise, leaders who have inspired me and leaders who have supported me. I just hope I can learn to be as good. Bring on September!